The Roof of My House
by Sarah Ali, 19 years
I used to love the roof of my house. Well, not anymore.
There is a bunch of kids in the middle, all gazing at some round glittering objects. Appointing himself as the referee
of the game, my little cousin declares the beginning of the match. A young boy starts. His pupils start to get bigger
and sharper as he measures the angle. His looks are focused on his target. He professionally flicks the little marble
out of his fist with the tip of his tiny thumb. "YES," he shouts. And the scuffle commences. His competitor, making an
oath of divorce, claims that he who won had cheated. Then trying to accept the fact that he lost, he swears it was
nothing but a fluke by an amateur. Enraged, he quits the game and promises he will take revenge the next time they
assemble to play.
The kids of the neighborhood always wondered why this group preferred the roof over the street. "The roof is much
nicer," my cousin used to simply reply.
That's one reason why I loved the roof. I loved the spirit, and I loved the marbles.
A year has passed. The kids don't come over so often these days. The place no longer sounds like their warmhearted spot,
let's say. Had he survived the war, my cousin would have been 12 years old by now. And here I am, selfishly mourning
over my stupid roof while others lost their lives!
There in the corner stands a pigeons' chamber. My parents have always argued whether to keep it or not. My mother used
to complain about the "bad smell" and the "filth" the chamber caused. She, however, was fair enough to always praise the
beauty of the doves. On that day, we all cried, mom included. There was too much blood to bear. We came to conclude that
not only humans' but also birds' blood can be aching to see or to smell. Though the place is pretty dark in here, I can
clearly see some feathers blowing here and there each time a puff of wind hits what remained of the chamber. I only wish
I could touch the feathers.
I don't know how they get water to reach houses in other countries, but in Gaza, you have a tank on the roof supplying
your house with water. Our tank has been leaking for ages. The plumber is always busy (don't be surprised, for in Gaza,
everyone is busy all the time), so we had to live with the water leaking from the barrel. Well, that had its advantages.
The withered lawn under the tank began to get green when the leak first started. No wonder my brother was sluggish and
didn't want the plumber to come take a look; he must have loved the green lawn. BANG..BANG.. the tank is not leaking
anymore. It's not even there. The lawn slowly dies. I desperately need to go irrigate it.
I used to study on the roof when I was a school-student. I could see my handwriting all over the place: on the water
tanks, on the chamber's wall, on the railing of the roof. One year passed, and the handwriting started to fade. The
things on which I used to write are no longer there. I eagerly want to go scribble something. I wish I could do so.
I wish I could one day go up to sit on the roof and find that nothing had changed. I am waiting for the day when I go up
to find my cousin and his friends playing marbles. I am waiting for the day when I find the tank leaking and the lawn
under it getting green. I am waiting for the day when I find the pigeons' chamber standing where my father first built
it. I believe I will one day find the roof as lovely as it has always been. I don't know how or when, but I feel it's
coming, and I know how naïve this sounds.
I can't but love the roof of my house. I didn't survive the war, but I believe in miracles. I am praying that those who
survived will witness one.
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Sarah Ali
February 5th, 2010.